Hi Ho Hi Ho Its Off To Work I Go

Last week I started working again, and I love it! God blessed me with a job that fit my needs, desires, and passions. Can you imagine working as a speech therapist at a school three hours a week and not having to do any IEPs? Well, neither could I. All I have to do is show up and do therapy, the best part of the job. Because we share clients, the other therapist at the site is taking care of the IEPs. As of right now this position is only through December, but we will see if that changes. Everything just fell in to place with a little patience and prayer. I truly believe God provided this tailor made position for me.

You might be thinking this sounds perfect, well here is the downside in one word - Rachel. She is no totally thrilled with this change. Her grammy watches her. It is a blessing to have them so close and Rachel loves spending time with her Grammy and Grandpa. In the morning I have to get ready for work which includes getting dressed, making sure I have all my materials, and making lunch for both of us. While I still have time to sit and play with Rachel for most of the morning, she notices that about an hour before we leave she no longer has my undivided attention. She tends to become whiny and clingy. Also she refuses to nap at Grammy's house so by the time I pick her up she is exhausted and makes it about halfway home before she is out cold till almost dinner time. By the time she wakes up she is beside herself with mommy deprivation. The rest of the evening is filled with fussiness, tears, and needing extra hugs and cuddles interspersed with some play. I am praying and telling myself it will get better and Rachel will adjust, but the guilt still creeps in as I question my decision. Am I being selfish? It is not like I have to work. We have set up our lifestyle to comfortably live on a single income. Because I truly believe God has provided this opportunity for me it is time for me to have faith that all the kinks will resolve and to remain in communication with God about my concerns. He will make my path clear.